Ugh my roommate called into work today and it’s totally ruining my day off. Not because I don’t like my roommate, but because I was going to sit in my pajamas and watch Netflix all day and now I have to take a shower and put a bra on and be social.
My septum retainer fell out during work yesterday and I couldn’t get it back in. I’m really bummed because I don’t have the money to get it redone for a while and I’m surprised by how much I don’t feel like “me” without it.
I still haven’t heard back from Disney, but I’m loving my job at Universal and I’m trying my best to enjoy the present instead of always looking to the future. When I lost my seasonal status two days after moving back to Florida, I felt like my life was over. Now I’m realizing that there are amazing opportunities for me everywhere and I just need to be open to new possibilities. Life doesn’t always go according to the plans I make for myself, but that’s okay.
We moved into our three-bedroom apartment this weekend! I’m super excited to get my own room and bathroom. I went out and bought a bed yesterday, which was my first official adult (aka expensive) purchase, and while I am now the poorest I’ve ever been in my life, at least I’m no longer sleeping on an air mattress! I still haven’t gotten the rest of my furniture down to Orlando, but hopefully I’ll be able to remedy that in the next week or two. For now, I’m just excited to finally be done moving for the foreseeable future.
January was kind of a terrible month for me, but a bunch of amazing things have happened over the last two days and I have a super good feeling about February.
So, it’s less than a month until my half marathon, and I’m really not enjoying my long runs. I know there are a number of factors (adjusting to Florida heat/humidity, needing new shoes, etc.), but I just get burnt out and fed up with my lack of endurance every time I go. My last big run was supposed to be 12.5 miles and it turned into mostly walking for 10 miles. My foot keeps cramping up once I get past 2 miles, and I know that will probably be fixed with new running shoes, but I feel like I’m not enjoying the process as much as I should be. I’m getting very nervous that I won’t be able to finish the race in time, and every time someone tells me they’re excited to come watch me and cheer me on, I get more and more anxious about the whole thing.
Why can’t I just go back to being excited and making progress like I was a few month ago? I’m going to look for new shoes today, but I just feel like I’m in a rut and I don’t want to embarrass myself on the day of the race. :/
I’m having a really rough time right now. I’m back in Orlando now and this morning I found out I’m no longer seasonal with Disney. Remember how I was all excited because I had officially worked all 150+ hours required for the year? Well, the dates they measured were a month later than the dates I thought they measured, so I didn’t actually get 150. I’m devastated, and I’m doing everything I can to contact labor services and try to get my job back, but I don’t know how long it will take or if it’s even possible.
And I just signed a lease, so if I don’t hear back from them by tomorrow, I’ll have to start looking for a different job.
Yesterday was rough. When I woke up, our dog, Ivy, was having trouble breathing so I took her to the vet. It turned out one of the valves in her heart had torn, so she had fluid building up on her lungs and she wasn’t circulating enough blood. We tried giving her diuretics, but it didn’t help very much and her prognosis was an uncomfortable week or two at best. We made the decision to let her go yesterday afternoon.