My body is reverting to my pre-half marathon condition, and I don’t like it, so it’s time to get serious about fitness again. I’ve run maybe three times since the half on February 28, so I’ve completely lost any endurance I previously had, but the important thing is to get out there and get moving, no matter how slow I am or how many walk breaks I take.
I’m keeping track of my food intake (mostly to cut down on mindless snacking) and I went for a run/walk this morning. I alternated 30 sec of running and 30 sec of walking, but we all have to start somewhere, right?
Life update: I’m in Sacramento for the weekend, visiting with my dad’s side of the family. It’s wonderful to get to see everybody, but I wish it were under different circumstances. My Aunt Julia was murdered by her roommate/ex last week. I wish I had more to add, but I’m not the most verbose when it comes to sharing personal things. So, yeah.
Ugh my roommate called into work today and it’s totally ruining my day off. Not because I don’t like my roommate, but because I was going to sit in my pajamas and watch Netflix all day and now I have to take a shower and put a bra on and be social.
My septum retainer fell out during work yesterday and I couldn’t get it back in. I’m really bummed because I don’t have the money to get it redone for a while and I’m surprised by how much I don’t feel like “me” without it.
I still haven’t heard back from Disney, but I’m loving my job at Universal and I’m trying my best to enjoy the present instead of always looking to the future. When I lost my seasonal status two days after moving back to Florida, I felt like my life was over. Now I’m realizing that there are amazing opportunities for me everywhere and I just need to be open to new possibilities. Life doesn’t always go according to the plans I make for myself, but that’s okay.
We moved into our three-bedroom apartment this weekend! I’m super excited to get my own room and bathroom. I went out and bought a bed yesterday, which was my first official adult (aka expensive) purchase, and while I am now the poorest I’ve ever been in my life, at least I’m no longer sleeping on an air mattress! I still haven’t gotten the rest of my furniture down to Orlando, but hopefully I’ll be able to remedy that in the next week or two. For now, I’m just excited to finally be done moving for the foreseeable future.
January was kind of a terrible month for me, but a bunch of amazing things have happened over the last two days and I have a super good feeling about February.
So, it’s less than a month until my half marathon, and I’m really not enjoying my long runs. I know there are a number of factors (adjusting to Florida heat/humidity, needing new shoes, etc.), but I just get burnt out and fed up with my lack of endurance every time I go. My last big run was supposed to be 12.5 miles and it turned into mostly walking for 10 miles. My foot keeps cramping up once I get past 2 miles, and I know that will probably be fixed with new running shoes, but I feel like I’m not enjoying the process as much as I should be. I’m getting very nervous that I won’t be able to finish the race in time, and every time someone tells me they’re excited to come watch me and cheer me on, I get more and more anxious about the whole thing.
Why can’t I just go back to being excited and making progress like I was a few month ago? I’m going to look for new shoes today, but I just feel like I’m in a rut and I don’t want to embarrass myself on the day of the race. :/